Deep Nothingness.

DEEP NOTHINGNESS //(Parts 1and 2)


At the end of today (2day4month2017year) I realised I have a small cut on my finger. I have no idea where it came from. How it happened. Or when it happened. Something that is visible on the skin, that can be felt when touched, I had no idea happened.

*How is that possible?

*Does it not scare you?

*Let me explain,

As I’ve said something visible I had not noticed till the night has been there, on my skin. It might just show that if you’ve got feelings for someone, a love towards something, a thought or a realisation you should be having, you might not not see it/ Think it.

It could get you into trouble.

Why do we think about stupid nothingness

When there is a whole new world that needs to be discovered in your mind, for good and for bad.

*do you not understand? 

* why don’t you understand?

*please understand? 

I need you to think and realise what i am saying, please do.

Be careful with your thoughts.


Why even do we try?

Why do we go to school?

Why does it get harder?

Why is everything so ‘important’ 

But some aren’t, 
School is pretty much all of your childhood, and most of your teenage years and what’s after that? Adulthood where apparently everything you’ve done in school is going to affect it.

 I’m still in school and have a few more years till I get out, and I’m not even that fucking stupid to think that, I know there is more to life than school subjects.

We’re told how and when to do everything in our young lives, we get no break its just go go go well that’s how it’s supposed to fucking be because if we’re not studying, not doing homework, taking a day off school, doing things like drugs and alcohol we are told we’re going no where in life, there is nothing more to our life after school.

And parents/teachers don’t fucking know why we’re stressed or feel like the pressure is bringing us down?

They are very very close minded with that case.

There are so many fucking things after school that will make you happy that does not involve anything ‘academically’ learned, if that even makes sense to you who listens and believes what you’re being told by these people who treat us to be the same, like none of us are different and we’re all clueless lab rats.
There is more than just learnt lines from books, and poetry we are not interested in but yet we’re told its all that matters


They tell us to dream big, we can be want we want and we have the universe ahead of us but how do we believe it when we’re stuck in this tight schedule that most don’t not like, may even hate it. 
Why us?

Is our youth living youth fully anymore?



My take on feminism:

Going back so many years ago when women were treated like an object,They were treated like they were lower than men… Feminism became a thing, which I’m more than happy about. At the start of feminism, it was just for women, to fight for women, to get equality for women, is that not amazing? People who had no liberal power or power towards anything, somehow had the braveness to try to change that. Brave is an understatement for them who started feminism.

Still now a days, not all aspects of a women’s life is equally treated to any other gender but we’re fighting to change that but the “we’re” I mentioned a few words back stand for women, men, the LGBT community, and most other community’s.Though not everyone from any group I mentioned care for women’s equality, that’s expected. No one has the same opinion on everything. But some people are just plain rude about it, and speak in ways that are not helpful for anyone which is also sadly expected as we live in a dog-eat-dog world. Meaning some people will fight for just themselves, and are willing to hurt other people if they don’t agree with them.

I haven’t mentioned this in any of the two above paragraphs but feminism is not just about women anymore, it’s for everyone, equality for everyone and I do love that, that has happened over the years. 

Feminism is now equality for everyone as people are expressing themselves more and more but some are still very close minded.
People who know nothing about what feminists aim for or what feminism is has the whole idea wrong/misunderstood. I hate that. I hate that we don’t learn about these, in my eyes, most important topics in school because imagine if we did?

Imagine how many more people would understand the term feminism? 

Imagine how much we could grow up to be more accepting?

 Okayyyy the amount of times I said feminism in them paragraphs is insane aha.

I understand that no one will probably understand what I’ve said because it’s a very hard topic to write about it but at least I tried. 

Byeee  xx

#ithinkpart2 SOCIETY 

In my eyes, everything is messed up, but not everyone knows it.
Every person continues with their normal life, if its living in a mansion or living homeless, they carry on with their daily lives until they cannot take it anymore or when they die naturally (when I say naturally I mean a sickness or  old age killed them) or just if anything happens, which to me is boring.

I envy people who are actually happy with life and not faking a smile, how is it even possible?
Rant over.
Okay, that is all for today I know it might be a sensitive topic or it just boring or does not make sense (probably all). Also sorry I haven’t been active with writing these, school is just boring and tires me so I either forget about this or am too tired to write)

– Katie 


Life is so hard to explain for me as a 13 year old. I might think I feel one thing but when I think about what how I feel I couldn’t have been more wrong.

It’s so weird, sometimes we can all have so many feelings, and other times I can’t even tell how or what I feel.
When I feel physical pain, it obviously hurts but I feel like I can and will always deal with it. Today at school I was showing my friend my bruise from when I feel on Saturday and she as a joke poked it, she thought I’d Flinch but I didn’t so she did it harder, harder and harder, I felt it, it hurt, I did not care, I don’t know why.

I feel like being  ””’sad””’ the whole time, made me feel like this, probably not, but its what I think

It’s honestly so hard to describe what I feel.


What I think the meaning of life is..
Life has millions and millions and millions of reasons, one for each person. Everyone has things or people they love and would do anything to keep in their lives, but I think only one of them is the true meaning to their life

But so many people have mental issues, and I do honestly think the main reason that caused their problems is that they don’t know their real meaning to their life. They don’t know their own definition of their own future, or, even, their past. 
You have all these “professionals” trying to tell you what is right and what is wrong in your life but they don’t know the real you, how can they if you don’t even know the real you?

You can not even look for the meaning of your life, it just comes naturally, a realisation almost.  It might even take years for it to come so just don’t loose hope, it will come even if its when you are old, just wait and enjoy your life as it comes. 

Also just think about things, it will end up having more meaning, giving what you have and what you want more meaning.

(I know that this is deeper than usual, but I feel like I needed to say it.)

 That’s is all for today aha. Byee!!!

~ Katie.